Fantasy

A brief description of myself is in order. I am a straight male into self bondage. My idea of a great time is to be in bonds and tease/tormented out of my mind by vibrators. My main vibrator is a vibrating cockhead sized pouch made from velcro. In addition I use a regular a penis vibrator and nipple vibrators. My usual bonds are leather cuffs, chain, and padlocks.

A typical session finds me chained with nipple and cock vibrators teasing on me. The cock vibes are set just too slow to bring me to climax. I have to endure fantastic sensations while held on the edge of an orgasm but unable to cum. This way I achieve a level of excitement due to frustration that is hard to imagine. After an hour or so a timer speeds up the vibes for a fantastic orgasm and a bit later a second timer drops the padlock key so I can reach it and free myself.

While I am helpless, squirming and enduring the tease/tormnent, my mind is conjuring all sorts of fantasies. The most common fantasy is that of being discovered while helpless, often by other males. Typically this would be when I am in a tie where I am bound bent over and vulnerable. I would be blindfolded and have a ring gag and inflatable cock gag in my mouth.

The fantasy has them surrounding me, first looking me over from all angles. Then they start tracing my body with their finger tips touching my entire body with special attention to my butt cheeks. All the while the vibes have me wiggling a squirming for their pleasure. Finally I feel my butt cheeks being slowly spread. Now I am really squirming, trying to escape. Then I feel something blunt pressing against my anus. I try and pull away but of course can not. My sphincter muscle tightens, resisting the pressure which slowly increases. Even as I fight the losing battle the inflatable gag is removed from my mouth. I try to speak, to offer to give blow jobs if they will just stay out of my asshole. Before I can try to speak the hole in the ring gag is plugged up. Then I realize that a cock is slowly entering my mouth. At this time my sphincter gives up the battle.

So goes my fantasy. I understand it is common for people in self bondage to fantasize about being used by the wrong sex. It is part of increasing the excitement.

This evening I am preparing for a session in a special room. It is located in a BDSM club. I met the manager and we chatted quite a bit about our fetishes. He finally talked me into doing a self bondage demo, actually a show, at the club. One wall of this room is a window but it has drapes that are closed at the moment. There is a rectangular metal frame bolted to the floor. The rectangle is about three feet wide by six feet long. It is open at one of the narrow ends and the height is adjustable at the closed end. There are metal 'loops' attached all along the upper rails.

After checking that the door is locked I open the drapes. The window opens on the clubs main room. There are about a half dozen couples sitting around with drinks in their hands. All are nude, some playing with a each other, some playing with themselves. When the drape opens their attention is drawn to me. I recheck the door between the rooms, it is locked.

I wave to the audience in all my naked glory and walk back and forth in front of the window, then stop and turn around several times. I hold up a sign that the manager has given me saying "ENJOY ME" then set it down leaning against the frame, facing the audience. Next I position myself at the closed end of the frame and spread my legs. I am just able to bend over and padlock my ankle cuffs to eyes on the vertical frame pieces. The short cross bar is adjusted just at the height of my balls. I show my padlock with the adjustable shackle then slip the shackle through the center eye on the short rail and around my scrotum between my body and my testicles and slide the body of the lock onto the shackle, pressing it tight to secure myself to the frame. I find being teathered by my balls very exciting.

The next step is to put on my nipple and penis vibrators. The nipple vibes are held by twine around my upper torso, the velcro cock vibe is hung by a twine tied to a belt at my waist. The velcro pouch of the cock vibe just contains the head of my cock, gripping and holding the tender flesh. The waist belt holds two battery packs to power the vibes. As usual my excitement increases as I progress in my setup. By now I am thinking with my cockhead. I find showing on the internet very exciting, being in diplay live is really a turn on

Finally I start the vibrators, bend over the frame and, reaching as far as I can stretch by rising on my toes, padlock my wrist cuffs to eyes on the long top rails. I am now in position, blindfolded with a ring gag and inflatable cock gag in place. I am in excellent whipping position. Of course I am alone and safe.

My excitement and frustration increases rapidly. Here I am securely stretched and locked helpless on this framework with my vibrators tormenting me, the velcro needles really doing a number on my tender cockhead. There are several things different with this session from my normal sessions. I do not have a padlock key in hand or a timed release set up to let me get hold of a key. The club manager is to release me, I know not when. Part of my excitement is not knowing how long. Also the cock vibrator is running too slow for me to climax and there is no timer to speed it up to orgasm speed. So I am not going any where until I am released and not going to orgasm until I can reach myself. All I can do is squirm as much as my captive balls allow.

Time passes and of course I have no idea how long I have been restrained but I am horny as all hell. I am completely frustrated and would beg for relief if I could and if it would do any good. Knowing that strangers were staring at me while on the internet has always turned me on. Specially when I know someone is watching me and so excited he or she is masterbating. Now I have a live audience examining me and considering what they would like to do with me really does it. It adds a lot to my fantasies. My whole body seems to be sensitive, it is like I can feel the eyes examining me. I am sure my squirming is providing a good show and incentive for my audience. Then I hear the door lock click and know the door is opening! I can hear the people coming in from the next room. I remember the sign "ENJOY ME". The manager has set me up!

I hear them surrounding me, first looking me over from all angles. Then they start tracing my entire body with their finger tips with special attention to my butt cheeks. All the while the vibes have me wiggling and squirming for their pleasure. Finally I feel my butt cheeks being slowly spread. Now I am really squirming, trying to escape. Then I feel something blunt pressing against my anus. I try and pull away but of course I can not. My sphincter muscle tightens, resisting the pressure which slowly increases. Even as I fight the losing battle the inflatable gag is removed from my mouth. I try to speak, to offer to give a blow jobs if they will just stay out of my asshole. Before I can try to speak the hole in the ring gag is plugged up. Then I realize that a cock is slowly entering my mouth. At this time my sphincter gives up the battle.

My fantasy has become reality! What have I done to myself?

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