I’ve been a bondage lover for as long as I remember. I used to play cowboys and Indians when I was a kid. I always wanted to be the one captured and tied up. I remember watching TV show where the heroine gets bound and gagged, secretly wishing it was me.

When I starting dating, I practiced bondage a little, but never found the perfect bondage partner. Oh, sometimes guys would force my hands over my head and forcibly kiss me, but I never really got myself tied up the way I imagined it could be. That’s when I turned to self bondage. The problem with that is I could never find a way to tie myself securely and still be able to get free later. I tried hand cuffs, they worked okay, but are kind of hard on my wrists. A girl friend suggested twisting ropes around my wrists, behind my back. It is so easy to get free, it really wasn’t bondage at all, in my mind. I think I define real bondage as not being able to get free, even when you want, or need, to.

I decided if I was going to be tied up the way I wanted, I would have to come up with a way to tie myself. I searched the web and got a lot of ideas about various release mechanisms. The key frozen in ice is very reliable, but I wanted to be held captive for a long time, longer than the ice thing would work. I decided I would approach this problem from an engineering standpoint. I have a associates degree in electrical engineering and can program a little.

First of all, what did I really want? I thought about it for a while and decided what I really wanted was to be securely tied, in a somewhat uncomfortable position. I wanted to suffer a little, but not too much. I also wanted to be out of control of my destiny. In other words, I did not want to know how long I would be bound. I did want cuffs or chains. Although they are very secure and easy to lock using pad locks, they are hard on my skin. They are also cold, which I did not want, seeing as though I would be bound for a long time. Ideally, I would be bound from head to foot in tape or cloth bandages with no chance of escape, but I did not see a way to do this to myself, and still get free. I saw a pallet wrapping machine that wrapped pallet loads of product with stretch wrap. This would be great, I could just stand on the turntable and let the machine wrap me up. The problem is when to stop the wrapping and how to get free.

I also wanted to suffer a little pain, but not too much. I decided I would need some help doing this, so I turned to my computer and an electric motor and some shocking devices. I had a Christmas bonus coming, so I bought myself some presents. I purchased a shocking type dog collar, a dual channel TENS unit, A programmable shocking type butt plug and a 10 inch dildo with a vibrator built in to it, and I found a servo motor and a PLC (programmable logic controller) in the trash at work. Did I mention I have an electrical engineering degree? The motor still worked. I don’t know why someone trashed it. Maybe it was obsolete. No matter, it would work for what I had in mind. The PLC did not work, but I dissembled it and found the problem, a broken wire. I easilt repaired this. Now that I had all my parts, it was time to plan out my adventure in great detail. I know how dangerous self bondage can be, and I did not want to die!

First, I had to test the dog collar shock on my self. I did and it hurt like hell, way too much for a long term bondage session. I put a resistor in series with the shocking probe and it toned down the shock considerably. I tried a 500k resistor and it was too big, no shock at all. I kept trying smaller resistors until I found one that would allow the right amount of powerful jolt. With the idea I had, that would be the most powerful shock I would get. Next I made a breadboard to test a variable resistor. This way I could program the collar to shock intermittently, with programmable intensity, and with variable length of shock. The program was rather simple. Every 15 minutes I asked the computer for a random 2 digit number, from 10 to 99. I used the first digit to determine the length of time for the shock. One second for each number. The second digit would determine the severity of the shock. So, the number 37 would give me a shock for 3 seconds with a severity level of 7 out of 9. I dreaded the thought of a 99! Next I turned to the TENS devise. I used the same programming technique. I just needed to program when it would shock, for how long, and at what intensity. I used the same random scheme, I just ask Mister computer for a number every 3 minutes for one channel and 4 minutes for the other one. All this programming is a real pain but I don’t know an alternative.

I decided to use leather wrist and ankle cuffs and spreader bars with pad lock on each. I figured a rope tied to each wrist cuff with the other end fastened to a rotating drum, driven by my programmable motor. I wrote a program that wound rotate the drum until my wrist cuffs were 4 feet off the bed. Now I did the same thing for my ankle cuffs. This way my feet would become elevated also. I tried out the program with empty cuffs. It worked pretty well, I just had to make some minor adjustment to the length of the rope.

For my release mechanism, I programmed the motor to unwind at a time determined by, you guessed it, my random number generator. I did program a maximum wind time, to be sure I would not be stuck too long. I set it for 50 hours. 50 hours, just over 2 days. That would be a very maximum time, I feel brave. I’ll make it 75 hours. I think I can take that, worse case. If I write my program right, it should be much less than that.

I thought I may want to get some uninterrupted sleep during my bondage session, so I programmed a 4 hour time every 24 hours when there would be no shocking and the winding would not be tighter that half way. Of course, I did not know when my 4 hour break would come. I also did want to get too short of a session. The length of time I would be bound is totally up to chance, with the random number program. So I programmed a minimum time of 4 hours.

What if we lost power? I thought of that. An electric clutch would disengage if power were lost for more than a second. The drum would be free to rotate and I could pull the wrist ropes to get some slack. Of course I still have to find the key someplace in the blankets. For safety sake, I put 2 keys in between the blankets.

I was almost ready to begin. One final check of everything. The dog collar shocker works with variable shocking, both intensity/duration and frequency. The TENS unit works great, quite a little tingle. hehe. I would have an electrode on the heel of each foot and on each tit, near my nipple. Four total, that should do it. The vibrator/dildo works. Note to self, lube first. Now the butt plug. That seems to work ok too. One last thing, fresh batteries for everything.

The time is getting close. I prepared a list of things to do just before my session started. Set the phone message “Sorry, I’m a little tied up for a few days. Leave me a message”. Next, go to the potty. That could get very messy. Prepare a large drinking bottle with a plastic straw I could reach at least most of the time. I should also unwrap 4 energy bars and put them on the pillow. With the way I wrote the motor program, the drum would unwind from time to time taking the tension off my arms and legs, but not enough to let me reach the keys. I should still be able to get a little snack once in a while.

As a last safety measure, I arranged for a friend to come over for dinner on Friday, 4 days away. She knew where I kept a key hidden and I had told her to let herself in it I didn’t answer the door.

The time is getting close and I am tingling with excitement, and maybe a little fear. I’ve never done this before and wasn’t sure I remembered everything.

I can not wait any longer. I must do this tonight before I chicken out. First things first, set the timer to start my program. I gave myself 30 minutes to get everything on. I had already fastened 2 ropes to the drum, one for the wrist spreader bar and one for the ankle bar. I put the TENS electrodes on my heels. Next came the butt plug. I lubed myself up good and slipped it in. MMMMM, that feels so good. Then the dildo, lots of KY and in it goes. Now I locked on the ankle cuffs. Time for the electrodes on my boobs. Now a ring gag. I fastened it fairly tight, but not as tight as it could go. I would be wearing it a loooong time. I could still eat and drink a little with that on. Now the wrist cuffs locked on and tied to the drum. The last thing was the blindfold. Then just lay back and wait for the fun to begin. I had turned all the lights in the house off except a little night light.

I laid back waiting, wonder what was taking so long, when I heard the motor start. Slowly, I felt my arms being raised as well as my feet. ZAP!! I wasn’t even tight yet and the collar shocked me! Then my pussy started to tingle, then my feet. Everything seemed to be working ok. When my wrists were tightened to the max and my butt plug shocked me I had my first orgasm. Of GAWD, what have I done??? I shivered in excitement as I got shocked again. I felt my arms start to relax and then a few seconds later start to tighten again. When the drum unwound, I could never know if it was sleep time, a break for me, or the end of the program. It was awesome the way the drum kept stretching me tighter, then letting me looser, with who know what shocking took place in between. The way I had programmed things, it was possible to get shocked by everything at once. OUCH!!! This happened more that I thought it would. It was exhausting, getting stretched, shocked and let loose. I finally felt it was sleep time and the program let me have a break.

I was awakened by the feeling of my arms being stretched and my feet being raised. OUCH, that was a big one. I think maybe I over did my bondage system for my first attempt. I could reach my water bottle okay if I stretched my neck. I had taped it to my pillow. But now I had to Pee. Great. I held it as long as I could, but finally let go. It was warm at first, but cold all too soon. I was wishing I had set a shorter time for my session now. I had no idea what time it was or how long I had been stuck like this. I had lost all sense of time. I didn’t even know if it was day or night.

I was regretting my decision to be out of control of my bondage situation. Too late for those thoughts. I was stuck and I knew it. I had nobody to blame but myself. My arms were so sore and my pussy felt like it was raw. The batteries for the dildo and butt plug were dead by this time. Then I heard the door bell. Oh no, it can’t be Friday can it? Again the bell, then I heard the door open. “Anybody home”? I heard. It wasn’t my friends voice, it was a man!!. Now I was really terrified. Then I heard him speak. “Well little lady, it looks like you’ve got your self in quite a bind. Are you ok”? the man asked. I nodded yes as he took the gag off. I stretched my aching mouth and he put the water bottle to my lips. “As long as you say you are ok, I guess I could leave you like this. This is what you wanted, wasn’t it”? he asked.

“No, please let me loose. I’ve been tied like for way too long”. I said.

“Another option is I could play with you for a while, before I released you. What do you think of that? Would you like me to play with you? Do you think I can do a better job than that dildo”? he asked.

“Oh, please untie me. I’ll cooperate with you completely if you just untie me. Please Mister, please” I begged. I felt the electrodes being removed from my tits and a warm hand caress them. “Please untie me” I begged.

“Hmmmm, I thought you liked being tied up?” he asked.

“Well, I do, but not for this long. I’ve been tied so long I don’t even know what day it is. Now please untie me. I’ll do anything you want.”  I begged.

“Okay, I’ll untie you, on one condition. I want you to be my bondage buddy. And I don’t mean for today, I mean forever, or until we agree to stop. I know you like bondage and so do I. I’m not a bad guy and I would never hurt you or do anything you didn’t want me to do. I’m sure this arrangement could be pleasurable for both of us. So, what do you say?”

I quickly thought about my options and since I was in no position to argue or negotiate, I agreed. “Okay, I’ll do it. Now please untie me now so I can pee and clean myself up.”

When he removed the blindfold I was relieved and very pleased. He was quite tall and good looking. He unlocked the cuffs and I rushed the toilet and then the shower. I cleaned myself up and put some makeup on and got dressed. When I found him again he was studying my little invention.

“Wow, you clean up very well” he said. “This is quite a rig you have here. Where did you get it?”

I explained that I made it and wrote the program myself.

“Very impressive. I could use this device to put you in a strappado. Here, come over and I’ll show you”.

He took my wrists and locked them together behind my back and tied the rope I was using for a wrist rope to my cuffs. Using the manual switches, he rotated the drum until my arms were well above my head and I was bent over on about a 45 degree angle. “How’s this?” he asked as he was tying my elbows together.

“mmmmmm” is all I could say.

As he slid his hand between my legs all I could think about was what a lucky girl I was to have found a new bondage buddy and I wouldn’t even have to program him.

“Do you have some plastic wrap? I want to wrap you up like a little mummy?” I think I might be in heaven and have found my angel!

19.12.09